duckie:

When a relationship doesn’t work out, people always tell you that you’ll recover, you’ll get over it, you’ll move on. But I wonder if that’s true for me. Because, you see, it’s not him that I’ve lost. It’s the belief that someone will be willing and able to deal with my depression forever. That feeling of safety with another person. Will I let myself have that again? Because a husband can leave and a boyfriend can leave and a friend can leave. Everyone can leave. Everyone leaves. Except sisters. Sisters have to stay.